headache

how i wish to go home early today...jam ani batah tia lagi kan beputar...ish...baiknya di belikan tia kali jam ani bateri baru...manatau jadi laju...ataupun tunggu manager ku ke toilet kali lakas2 ku lajukan jarumnya kali...*awu...ujung2 gugur jam dinding atu atas kapala...udah tah barat mcm besi...mun takana bah bemara ne...! abis bedarah-darah mua...tapikan mun kapala pacah ..boleh kali di gam pakai masking tape atu?...im~ supa glue kah tampal pkai karatas pasir...adui~!!! apasaja yg ku pikirkan ane? parah2...!!!!!!!!!!!!




parah!!!! limau!!!!!! bukan kapala parah...masih lagi bafungsi warainya ne...oh yes..!! all i need now is wait for another hour....god!!! these takes forever...oh come on baby~~ gagas ku kan baliks...nada org buat jam dinding pakai remote kah..sanang jua kan di tukar waktu2 nya...


ugh~!! oh yeah!! to chiccoyanee .. TERIMA KASEY > byk2 kerana sudi bawa mkn kemarin di Q. it was really nice...next time it's gonna be my treat...please remind me about it...coz im so forgetful sometimes...plus sorry andangnya amai bnar tangan ku ... for real will treat you anything u wana eat as long as it's "edible" and "not human" *kalau di izinkan bertemu lagi lah...we don't know what will happen rite?

lunch with taz

just like mandy said...i was having lunch with a "friend" of mine...garfield a.k.a taz..., i was so surprised that she's waiting for me..coz the other they she did text me that she couldn't have lunch with me today.. i was happy though...but ..uh~ it was a very bad timing..um...~ anyway!!..~ at the end we had our lunch at food court..heh~




taz really don't know what she wanted to eat...she can't make up her mind...i't took her a long time to order some food...me ? i just ordered mee goreng mamak and milo ping *it was good* and she ordered um? chicken rice and ...abc..., btw these is a habit of mine when eating out with taz..i tend to hide all the spoon and forks on the table...heheh why? coz everytime we eating out it seems to me that her food always arrived first than mine...*i was thinking that..if i hide the spoons and forks..than she can't eat right? i don't want she finishes her food before mine came...* as for her habit..i guess she sometimes waited for me to drink and when the time is right she would make some silly and stupid jokes...often i nearly spills the drink in my mouth because of her.


why the hell she did that? i don't know...no idea...ehem* bepikir jua ku tu kaliah...ia lagi slalu duduk depan2 ku..so sekiranya tah ia buat joke bila time ku minum atu...don't u think..that..kalau nda tetahan kan ketawa lagi...segala yg ku minum atu gerenti uh~ tesimbur tempat ia...? bukan me yang basah .. kan? kan? ofcoz i'd be malu..d mana kan menapuk muka ? bwh meja?


anyway time duduk2 tu ceta2 si taz ada ternamapk kwn nya time skulah...but they nda tegur2 lah *JANGAN TEGUR ~~* heheheh kwn nya atu order makanan di sana jua...but when i saw kwn nya tu ah even skali imbas saja...mcm ok wah...cool...with dyed short hair..white skin etc..p.s: kwn nya tu a girl..wow..~ i said to her..lawa kwn mu ah..napa u nda mau tackle ia? ... si taz ckp "bowh bhapa..bgf kali udah tu ah~" but even so rugi tu kta me lah ...hehehe


taz: nda aku ada 2 bf udah...


after having lunch we went for a smoke tempat around sana jua lah bukan tempat biasa...apa byk org lalu2 kan turun naik...i told her i don't like to smoke in public but gagas punya pasal whatever lah...si taz nya " ada time atu aku gagas wah~ laju bnar ni jln ku ah...iatah...masa tu aku tu kan melintas jln raya .. sampai pertengahan jalan atu...tepelicuk tah ku..tegugur ku taus.."

me: bowh..tegugur bah..banar deh?

taz: awu banar..telampau gagas ku bah time atu..iatah tegugur ku..brg2 dlm beg ku abis tekeluar"

me: ha3 yakan? macamana style nya ko gugur ah? style matrix ? mcm uh~ kepala mu dulu mengampas lantai kah etc"

taz: nda plang sampai mcmatu .. kirakan teduduk ku bah tarus"

me: so mcmana tah ? ada org lintas2 jua and ada keta beranti jua kah?

taz: keta masa tu nada plang tapi ada jualah org melintas dapan ku..malu kaliah ku iatah laju2 ku mengambil brg ku gugur..gincu ku apa etc..

me: kau atu jua nda pernah nda gagas...

taz: bah bila lagi tane jln..bth udah nda jln2 mcm dulu..

me: liatlah mun beduit..apa guna berjln tanpa duit..?

si putih mandy

i went to my friend shop today and i saw unfamiliar face, smiling at me, she said "hai" as if she knew me, do i know her? um~ *thinking* probably i do know her but i guess i'm so forgetful sometimes. so i went up to my friend...she was doing some work at the back...arranging some stuff...as usual. as i walked toward's her...my friend mandy gave me that look,





mandy: hey..i saw you just now with your gf...so sweet

me: huh? no she's a "friend"

mandy: is it? :P

me: yea..it is..i told you before didn't i .. just friend...

mandy: i don't believe you...you're so sweet with her..i can see it

me: ugh..whatever..anyway where's j ?

mandy: ah yes she's off today...

me: owh *that's a relieved coz just a couple's of days ago they were having a fight..and i thought she's transfer to ther branch..* so today you're working with the girl at the front?

mandy: yeah...

me: owh...she's nice and her skin is so white...

mandy: is that so? heh i got white skin too you know infact whiter than her...you never compliment me about it..then you see her today .. you compliment her instead of me..

me: ah~ no..hey where you going?

*mandy went to the girl and told her about it...obviously i don't know what to say so i just listened..the girl smile and she's saying something to mandy .. but i couldn't catch on whatever they're saying coz they're using their foreign language..not that i don't understand but i just couldn't concentrate heheheh..
well mandy does look whiter than her...

me: yeah...okay..i get it..your skin is whiter than her okay mandy?

mandy: i know...

*btw i forgot what her name...totally blank...

whatever

nothing much to do...just stay at home...i don't really care anymore...what happens just happens...just go with the flow...it's just like having so many paths in front of me but i don't want to take my chances so i just sit back and relax...waiting for something to happen or something to guide me ... i'm so tired of finding and searching..hoping ..i might as well just give up . stranded on a boat in the middle of nowhere...the sea just too big for me ..lost the way and no sense of direction. waiting for someone to save me, mmm~


why yan? why do you have to be so hard to yourself?





i hate my past ...i hate to what i've became now...i hate myself...i hate everything...!!




god how i need some workout...i really envy some chinese people...they tend to go out with their friends and family...going to some park or somewhere they can enjoy and at the same time do some workout...healthy life huh? i wish i have my own personal gym...coz if i do have one i don't have to asked friends and people to accompany me..my manager a chinese who'se on her 40's always went to the park with her family, almost everyday...so nice to see them..doing such activities...i need to find someone who'se interest are the same as mine...but where?

Bernafas dlm lumpur-awie

Lama mana lagi~
hendak ku turutkan~
kata telunjuk yg menuding kepalaku~

sabar apa lagi~
hendak ku katakan~
hingga aku bernafas bagai dlm lumpur~
kasihan...~

wajah kita sama~
beza pada gaya~
itu pilihan masing2 yg empunya~

mungkin pada usia~
rasa yg berbeza~
yg penting kita saling hormat menghormati~
panduan...~

kita tak dpt bersama~
namun kita juga manusia~
kita punya rasa cinta~
masing2 punya harga~

mahu apa lagi~
akan ku korbankn~
selagi ada hayatku dikandung badan~

oh..Terima kasih~
kerana balasan~
semoga sejahteralah hidup semua~
oh..Kawan....~

Misteri mimpi syakilla-awie.

Di manakah menghilang~
diriku sendiri~
hanyut dalam bayangan~
sebuah misteri...~
harum tiada wajah~
mengelilingi aku~
dgn suasana~
yg terharu~

lukisan impianku~
gambaran di mana~
cuaca yg begini~
apakah mahunya...~

aku hanyalah aku~
nyanyi lagu yg rindu~
lemah langkahku~
mengejarmu....~

bila pun engkau menjelma~
di sini aku berdiri...~
ku menanti...~

walau hilang ceritamu~
di hati tetap abadi~
sentuhanmu...~

mana syakilla..~
siapa syakilla..~
aku pun tak tahu...~

Diambang wati - awie

Yg putih bersih~
dalam gita kama~
si ratu yg dirindu~
persis citra sakti~
mimpi insan...~

di ambang wati~
di dasar hati~
dan diri yg menyeru sumpah..~
sehangat nyawa bergelora~
terbuka hendaknya~
pintu segala azam~
malam antara malam~
sepasang rembulan..

Kembali terpatri~
panji sejahtera~
mengotakan janji silam~

asmara...~
kejar mengejar hujungnya..~
sepanjang hari beredar~

mengukur bayangan berahi~
menghitung detik perpisahan~
mendamba~
kepangkuan kekasih~
menangis dlm kesyahduan...~

yang murni...~

Sejati - awie

Sejati...
Itu yg kau ucapkan~
bila janji ku genggam~
bawah pohon kemboja~
yg sekecil kita~
menanti...~
di mahligai mainan~
kita bina bersama~
dari dahan~
yg rapuh...~
usia perangkap kita~
remaja kita tinggalkn~
namun aku masih~
menggenggam janji~
tinggal kenangan~
gagal segala impian~
tinggal bertanya~
erti sejati...
Kenangan itu~
hanya mainan bagimu..
Tinggal bertanya~
erti sejati...~
yg telah engkau janjikn dulu..~

Klau belum ready jgn gagas kan kahwin

Kpd wanita2 yg di luar sana tu, kalau udah buat decision kn kwin sma bf atu, pkir dlu msk2, ani kdang2 ada yg nda jadi kn kwin,


i mean cuba tah ah, klau kn ubah pkiran atu at least provide good reason, one of my fren, a guy, plan kn get married wt this girl, tapi d girl d cancelnya n taus putus ani bh, reason coz the guy got many debt, cheh~ ya meh?If u luv d guy y nt helping each othr, entah2 yg d guy ani hvin affair x, i kno hm,so ada possibility,either way~ if kn kwin tu should hv deep commitment,blum apa2 udah tia putus..

ur the best b.f.f

i'm not sure what am i supposed to do? if only i know what i want in life , hey goldenheart cheer me up will ya~ btw thank q sooo much ... u helped me alot...i bought already the things so i just try it if it work...i have no idea about these stuff so thanx ...

aku terkena dek april fool mu

wooo...! sampai ati mu wooo!!! tsk tsk ada ka patut aku terkena dek april fool yg u bagi goldenheart oi, awu jauh udah pandangan ku, banartah ku bayang2 kan udah bis si zul beranak pinak ulih mu, mendudui anak, menukar2 lampin...me atu jua telampau pecaya ..u ane lagi satu pandai u ah~ chewah beceta ani wah cam bana...me apalagi angguk2 saja tah waha3 astagana2 time u beceta tu kan ... jeles me u ckp ia kawin udah ah plus ada package g tu dgn anak segala...waduh2 koq kamu gimana ya...hu3 yang suspen nya time u ckap g ia ada pasan pat me...me bayang kan dah yang ia nda mfkan me etc *tau2 lah me jahat dulu rahnya...if di bagi peluang bah me kan tebus balik kesalahan me tu...pike ta ia bedandam..o ia ada kaja yang lebih baik dari me...coz me ingat yg u ada gto me ia ada buat image/melukis kan2?? me tah yg mula2 jeles tu lau ia jadi pelukis ah..~





btw me ada search ia pat google but no luck ey...i really2 wana know what she doin ryte now..i mean i'm curious bah ...kan ingin tau jua me tu...hehe um~ u know what ...i give u compliment coz you "berjaya" lah ..me plang lupa kan give u april fool wa~ cheh nampaknya tpaksa me kumpul bahan2 dulu ni...aku tak rela you...aww..~



kalau ku cakap lah time april fool yg me kwin bah "pecaya kan u tu" haha gerenti nda u cya kali...

rimas jadi friendly

a guy i know from work...you can call him mr.T ...he's married and working in his family bussiness. got kids and probably in their teen now. evertytime he sees me , ia blanja food...i'm like all ears ..i mean i listened to his problem. i don't know why people opened up to me...cheh~ rimas bah coz sometimes if im friendly people slalu salah sangka .. like they see me friendly..(i am actually) but rimas wa...ingat aku ani pakar psikologi? tmpt org mengadu...sedangkan masalah ku sendiri lagi payah2 kan di solve.. well org mengadu tmpt ku..aku mengadu tmpt you (goldenheart) hua3 seriously he tried to talked to me about his marriage .. personal life and his affair..whoa chill out dude...he asked me for adviced...opinion...etc...how am i gonna do that? i don't know what "love" is? never experience any serious relationship or falling over heel on someone (except uh~mrs.V, mrs.M, mrs.A, mrs.Y, and mr. D)

ada lagi tu lingka yang meluahkan perasaannya tmpt ku..rimas2.. cali ada jua...but his ok friendly...at least he know his boundary...






there's so many people i met .. lain2 species nya...but layan saja tia...bnar kata my b.f.f i got these weird aura...im attracting weird people.
kanak2 pun ada yang weird jua..mcm the brat yg slalu dtg tempat keraja ku ah..nakal banar abis brg ku nda pernah selamat..especially mkanan and minuman yg ku bawa..mcm vacumn cleaner wa ia ah..skajap abis mkanan olehnya..brapa kali udah ku marahi ,bukannya kamin takut ..makin plang ia suka x..pengatil kanak2 nya. actually ia ani telampau cute wa..kalah barbie di kadai mcm teddy bear udah peliatan ku. asal dtg sana ..selamba duduk siring2 ku ..mula tia becerita mcm2...pandai g buat2 cerita...


no..bukannya cerita "pada suatu hari ada seikung kura2 bla bla bla atu!" i mean kalau ia becerita wa " ate...tonight i asked your bf to pick us at 8 o'clock, we have dinner and then bla bla bla hotel bla bla kiss " bowh skalinya becerita... (she's only 11 yrs old) heh...*btw siapa kah yg di ucapnya bf ku ah - thomas edison

malar sabut2 nya tu thomas edison ah...pikir tah bf nya...sasak2 ku kan ku search tempat internet...

rupa2 nya THOMAS EDISON ani american inventor...if you refer tmpt internet wa..u liat saja picture nya alahai tua x ah.. mcm org bersejarah usulnya dari zaman batu...kuno2