Saturday, April 18, 2009
whatever
nothing much to do...just stay at home...i don't really care anymore...what happens just happens...just go with the flow...it's just like having so many paths in front of me but i don't want to take my chances so i just sit back and relax...waiting for something to happen or something to guide me ... i'm so tired of finding and searching..hoping ..i might as well just give up . stranded on a boat in the middle of nowhere...the sea just too big for me ..lost the way and no sense of direction. waiting for someone to save me, mmm~
why yan? why do you have to be so hard to yourself?
i hate my past ...i hate to what i've became now...i hate myself...i hate everything...!!
god how i need some workout...i really envy some chinese people...they tend to go out with their friends and family...going to some park or somewhere they can enjoy and at the same time do some workout...healthy life huh? i wish i have my own personal gym...coz if i do have one i don't have to asked friends and people to accompany me..my manager a chinese who'se on her 40's always went to the park with her family, almost everyday...so nice to see them..doing such activities...i need to find someone who'se interest are the same as mine...but where?
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