Friday, May 22, 2009

Hari terburuk dan tersedih

Sungguh tak ku sangka dan tak ku duga hari2 ku yg biasa bertukar menjadi hari2 yg paling sedih ku alami, bu bnr tah , nda dpt ku sangka atu kali terakhir aku becakap,ketawa,marah sama meliat kita, walaupun byk kali ku berharap supaya sakit mu di bgi tmpt ku,



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Monday, May 18, 2009

Andai aku punya duit berjuta

#1. Gerenti ku beli kereta suzuki swift, kereta idaman x ah coz cute usulnya, porshe, ferarri, modified tu, plus dlm nya ada mp3,laptop,dvd player,speaker,gps tracker, dgn sticker,sport rim,twin exhaust..

#2. Aku mau beli motorsikal sport, dulu minat harley davidson tpi krg byk dah jenisnya, suzuki pun ok jua, skuter kah




#3. Beli dua tiga buah rumah, untuk my real mom..My foster family and me, nda tah payah jauh2,dekat2 aja ha3, besebalahan, aku suka rumah buatan british, 2 atau 3 tingkat,cukup dgn gym, swimming pool, tmpt main badminton, skuash, environment friendly bleh pkai solar energy, garden luas with lots of trees n flowers, especially lavender,

#4. Buat bangunan hotel utk di sewa, ckup dgn restaurant,utk shopping, cinema, garden, mcm beach resort pun ok tu.

#5. Aku mau sponsor filem hollywood n pelakon utama gerenti kate moennig, angelina jolie atau lindsay lohan. Sponsor ghost hunter pun ok.

#6. Aku mau keluar negara, mcm ke jepun..Canggih x ah teknologi nya, liat artis2 manga,bli anime, mkn sushi,udon,sake~,negara bersejarah san francissco, l.A tmpt l word belakon, new york city tmpt shopping, ke u.K,london england,ireland,scotland,new zealand ,las vegas tmpt entertainment,kn gamble,liat konsert, disneyland waha3

#7. Visit bar yg ada label rainbow ha3,

#8. Smbung blajar secara private or ke U.K, london,perth australia manatau kejumpahan c vin sma stan,blajar art, blajar menulis,

#9. Donate ke tmpt org miskin, breast cancer, elderly people,

#10. Opening my own shop, but since dvd,vcd shop is nt goin on so well lately beta find sumthn else to sell *sigh* supplier g

#11.Buy anything my love one wants.

#12. Save it for future.



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Friday, May 15, 2009

It's official

Hey, golden heart, how r u today? Btw if u punya nick golden heart which mean heart of gold than it does suits u, ur heart so pure x ah wha3 bnar, if my nick maybe broken heart which mean hati yg slalu rosak ha3 mcm sakit hati bunyi nya, confirm dats me, n i like the sound of dat. Nda plang ku ska org buat ctu to me ,i jz like nick nya sja, ha3 me who hold the heart of darkness, mmg skit ati ne ,ada ubt nya kah?



banyak kwn..Gerenti byk jua lawan nya, nda ja, nda ku pandai kn menjaga hati, apa yg ku fikir logik sma lurus iatah ku practice selama ani, i mean mostly i dont lie , nda ku pandai, klau ku menipu gerenti nampak di raut n gerak geri ku tu, i'm human bkn alien, even so i did lie klau terpaksa, manusia ane bh nada yg jujur seratus peratus, trust who u cn trust, ppl like me who used to be lonely need someone like u, to motivate me, to give me advice, coz i kno time will come sooner or later that i will feel deep loneliness. A person like me , cn be fragile even if i do look tough, a person like me will never be afraid to do stupid things when cnt endure sadness, suicidal? Im too coward to do dat ,bt people cnt be predicted so who knws.

Im jz stating things sja, nothing to blog about so im wasting my time rambling,
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Bad karma x

Banar tah, sebatah ku ada argument dgn c garfield / "g" , mcm weird my feelings atu, bkn dri segi romantika d amor ah , just plain weird saja, gerenti ne aku ada bad karma, doing bad things to others n it will return to u, yakan? Aku ane jahat meh? I mean ofcoz i admitted aku ani jahat tpi nda x over jahat ku mcm natural bitch heh, maybe aku kecarian x saja, aku a2 jua salah bh, buat decision in a rush kn throw her away jz like dat, no..Nda plang smpai ati, just ala merajuk sja, mau jua di pujuk, bt mmg its my fault lah, n aku terima kesalahan ku a2, tpi yg buatku panas sgt ani, tau udah aku ikhlas bgi ia crdt, bcoz of d argument ia kn byr blk th plang, sasak ku ey.



pernah ku text ia last sunday, aku gto yg msg atu iatah last msg ku bgi, and kalau aku ani ia pkir nda belurus bjanji jgn th bkwn dgn aku, bnar tah perkara a2 sebnrnya kecil bh bkn nya bsar, kirakn tah ah ia dtg d gdg lpas ngantar adinya n kakanya,ktanya ia smpai dh d gdg 9.30,aku d rumah time tu..So ku bgi ia text msg 10 min lgi ku dtg sna,ujan lgi turun so kn mandi lgi, smpai2 ku d gdg pkl 10,then ku text ia dmana time a2, ia reply mcm org mrh, sasak ia menunggu mcm c paloi nya,ngalih bpanya ngantar,jadi bpaku nda ngalih mengantar? Jadi aku nda pernah menunggu kau dulu? Pernah x ah ku menunggu ia sma jua mcm c paloi,dtg pkl 9 tpi ia langsung nda dtg psl bpanya nada,bjln, y nt msg ka aku dulu,nw msalah sma, at least aku dtg, apa jua lmbt 30 min berbanding dgn nda dtg langsung, ane tuduh nya g ia tau aku nda jadi, aku mls kn dtg sedangkn aku bnr2 kn jmpa ia, udah ku gto ia mlm a2 confirm aku dtg, wei "g" cubatah sabar sikit deh, awu adaka patut ia gto ia menunggu aku bjam2,btah jua 30 min a2 bgimu, ani kemarin ada ko send aku emoticon smiley, mls th ku membls,mun ko bgi salam tantu ku membls atau if u have sumthing 2 say..Aku ane mrh2 jua tpi skajap sja, atau kdang2 mrh ku ani bedendam tpi klau ku smpai ati sja which is rare. Liat lah nanti sma ada gatal tgn ku kn menagur kau,i mean pkai text lah,

c mr.Playboy pun ada tdi time ku break, off ia harini, saturday ia half day x, dont kno if he wana c me, ia ane bemusim, paning ku schedule kerajanya,lpas 2 hari kaja then 1 off, sunday fulltime, ish i tot ia forgot dah apa yg ku promise kmarin, ystdy ia half day so ia k gdg kn ke cyber cafe n jmpa aku terus lah, im nt seriously into him, jz better nt to gv %100 my heart n trust a2, coz i kno its gona be painful klau broken heart lgi..,

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Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Arg!! Exercise

Payah wah kn exercise without someone to accompany you, i read dalam article kan,katanya kalau kn do exercise much better do it with someone,coz it can be enjoyable,mcm klau tired gerenti nda sadar tu and lagi klau with someone boleh challenge each other..Motivate you to do even further,ani kalau sorang2 apa ada? Nothing..Boring x ah, kalau ke gym malas ku, coz kalau public nda tah ku suka tu, unless klau kn show off tmpt pretty girls ok lah x ,ha3,



i want to do hard exercise tpi exercise yg ku suka, mcm badminton, cycling , dodgeball, squash kah, o tennis cheh, tpi nada dangan ane tah payah, semua bz and ada g nda mau, y nt? Its for health gpun yg ada advantage diri jua nanti..If only ada trainer kn d upah kn bgus like every weekend kah ikut schedule do some workout sma trainer..And the place mcm gym is yours for an hour kah depends on the payment, or mcm dlm "the biggest looser" ah,diorang pkai trainer to push them doing hard exercise, i don't mind lebih2 th lgi if trainer a2 hot ~ nda ja,

bh puan2 dan tuan2 sepertimana aku bgitau b.F.F ku c goldenheart , resepi senaman yg gerenti mujarab, berkesan ne, tpi do it on your own risk ha3 ,bhan2 nya butter milk, 1 red meat , 1 glass of milk, seutas tali sma sebatang kayu..Sma main item yg utama,mesti ada ne,mun nada nda menjadi..Ok~ "seikung kuyuk" - ya puan2 dan tuan2, mula2 gaulkn butter milk sma red meat tadi sagai lambut n lemak berkrim dsukai ramai ,k, n then ikat dan gantungkan rah kayu tadi, ok~ minum dulu 1 glass of milk tadi so nda "dehydrate" nanti, n then ampirkn tia brg2 tadi pat kuyuk ah, kalau ada tanda2 nya kn membubut dats mean its working, cuba klau buleh belari kaliling kg, ok! Warning: pilih kuyuk yg cute2 mcm chihuahua,dalmatian kh, jgn pilih kuyuk bulldog atau yg bakurap2, lainlah klau telampau desperate bnr kn belari!

Mau yg simple? Um~ msk lam penjara ah, gerenti mkn minum free, diet nya pun ok, bejadual x ah,mun sya nda sya mau toh..

Tringat tah ku nah pasal skit g kn terperangkap pat kaja, betutup udh bh pintu blakang kn kna kunci,nda dorang tau aku d dlm meh? Ee sasak ku, if serius y nt check dulu ada org kh nda d dlm ofis sebelum kn menutup, if beibun,dude u guys gone too far, if i hadn't gone out the ofis like 10 second tadi i probably spending my nite at the shop, pitch dark and alone, u want me to die kah? Mun ku kejumpahan antu wa dlm sana gelap2 entah d mana tah kn btapuk blari? Bkn nya ghost hunter ne, ghost hunter pun bdangan x ah, ada g torch light segala,plus cameraman, ane sorang2, nda ku sanggup!! Esk ntah gerenti ketawa ne durang ah, mrh ku tadi tmpt c bayang,ku tumbuk2 bdan nya ,ku kusuti rambut nya ha3 nda ku smpai ate kn mrahi bnr2,mun ku mrh bnr bh gerenti taus kes polis ne,men behantam..Tabal kn sja mua,tuli kn sja talinga,babaukn sja mulut,nda ulah,esk kuar ku awal2..
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Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Kawan?

Subject kawan?, klau kn becerita mengenai kwn ani, memang nda pandai berabis lah, coz ragam kwn2 ani lain, diorang ani mempunyai sifat yg berlainan, mcm dlm kata peribahasa "rambut sama hitam tapi hati lain2", bkn semua kwn2 yg tani suka,bkn semua kwn2 ani baik, tpi pandai2 tah sja memilih kwn kdang2 ada yg dapan2 baik tpi d belakang aduhai bkn main jahat, kdang2 ada org ska bekwn dgn org baik kdang2 ada org ska bkwn jahat2, it's depend on d individual lah, what they want in a friend,


klau aku jgn tah d tanya jenis kwn mana yg ku suka, ku layan jua..Jahat kah o baik kh whatever bh, janji jgn smpai menyakiti atiku udah, aku ani mun di kirakan penyabar,ok jua lah tpi mcm manusia lain jua x ah, ada had2 nya, aku ani moody org nya ada msanya ku baik,ada jahatnya jua, mun bkwn dgn org mcm aku ane gerenti nada yg tahan,aku orgnya "fair" , if my friend treat me nice so y nt treat them nice too, tpi if they treat me bad thats what i'm gona gv them also, what for if diorang treat me bad n aku mcm c palui melayan baik kn? Bt kalau i consider them b.F.F manasaja, jhat pebaik ku layan,ku terima jua, i do cherish My B.F.F, i do anything selagi mampu, bkn snang kn mencri B.F.F ani, need time, need trust, jgn mcm c paris hilton, buat tv show utk mencri B.F.F, apa faedahnya lau kn mencri friend yg gila harta,glamour,popularity?,nda bth tu, mun skadar utk publicity bh nda tahan tu..Forever mean for a lifetime x ah,

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Monday, May 4, 2009

abg sham & tomoi

tadi my bro kahwin..selamat pengantin bari to norisham & norainah a.k.a abg sham & tomoi...semoga berkekalan hingga ke anak cucu...pak2 gedebung2 ... tadi suasana nya meriah lah jua ..it's just kami nda berapa kenal sgt org sana...ada plang kenal2 tapi sikit saja...abg suhaimi ada ia menagur aku tadi..ia betanya di mana ku keraja etc..ah tadi masa on the way kan kerumah abg sham ani bah fuyoo bukan main laju lagi abg azizul ah mendrive kerita...mcm dlm track tah plang .. ingat kereta lumba? potong kiri kanan, speed nya alahai bukan main..angguk2 bah kerita...adaka patut diorang pikir yg si amoi atu kaka ku..no lah adi ku tu..i know2 usul ku ani not mature...mcm kanak2 but i think thats a compliment right ...ha3... anyway time di kem tadi si amoi ada with ia punya fiance...chewah sama colour bajunya sama tunangnya ..seiring dan sejalan...~ ia pakai baju kurung coklat ..katanya bajunya ia sendiri mereka fashion nya ... aku nda jua tau pasal fashion2 ani... si amoi pakai kacamata but i can see ia punya eyes like mine brown in colour hehe and ketara bah kulitnya putih dari aku..betapa jelesnya aku..aku ada nampak abg teruna tadi jua..pakai baju melayu hijau ya..tagurnya ku jua..mula2 mana ku kenal tu..







si amoi ada bagitau aku yg ia kan kahwin bulan may ani jua 31hb...so abg sham jadi wali lah tu...not sure ia bnr2 mau jemput aku or nda coz aku tau mamanya atu pemarah...ada conflict with our real family...so strict...lihatlah nanti if abg sham bawa kesana...,so after that..kami ke tempat pengatin bini lah, escort abg sham kesana...chewah abg sham hehe ia ni hensem nda jua ..sadang..tapi hitam manis..senyumannya atu bah manis..ha3 mun putih hensem x..pakai baju pengantin hijau ia ...my family ikut dlm kereta si amoi and tunangnya lah..u know what tunangnya di galarnya si damit...kerja shell..jasra? ok jua usulnya...awu ..dua kali lima jua lajunya...kereta pengantin pun laju ani bah ,potong kiri kanan..adeh~ lakap melakap bah perhiasan kereta ah..ha3 , jauh jua tempat si tomoi ah sanggup jua abg sham mengantar mengambil ia balik kaja..mcm dari mulaut ke tempat si tomoi ni dlm setengah jam bah..melintasi jerudong...entah apakan nama tmpt nya ..nda ku hapal...sampai di sana ah bukan main panjang traffic nya...payah kan masuk..jln lagi sampit...abg sham suruhnya kmi jln dulu..oi bang ..kami mana lagi ingat mana satu rumah si tomoi ah, krg lurus salah rumah di masuki...krg lurus salah pengantin...bini org krg kita kahwini ha3...and ia punya hantaran well..nda pakai bas rupanya durang pkai kereta biasa saja..plus nada hadrah..iatah panic kmi bah..nda teratur...tapi ok lah semua lancar akhirnya...ia ku suka sana atu ada org belagu2 pengantin..nda pyh lagi pkai hadrah2 ..ada g org menari2 .. org menari ani ada ku teliat mcm tua umur dlm 50 x bini2...waduh rancak banar tariannya..ramai kana liat..cukup dgn tarian geruda sama gerudi lagi chewah baruya...kana sorak2...then banyak laki2 menari sorak2 mengelilingi bini2 ah ..so bini2 tu tangah2 wah popular jua ..pakaiannya moden x ah baju kebaya befesyen..cukup dgn kacamata item sama wah rmbutnya ber dye miah yo..atu rugged...mun batt ku nda low bah ..ku gmbr ya udah...handal ey...wa tabik sama lu la....





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surprise

duh~ no lah...i wish it could happen that way ..but no.. so ku translate saja dlm bahasa melayu...actually nya aku malas kan bercerita english atu .. lain pulang ku taip di sana...melarat ke alam fantasi...so realiti nya ani nah...


well, that morning like always, ku masak air panas untuk bos ku..ia mun karing leher iatah jadi minuman nya tu..*cubatah masak sendiri ja* hehe then lepas atu buatlah keraja macm susun2 fail, masukkan kertas document dlm fail, sama mengira2 jumlah harga stock untuk auditor nanti, tiba2 mcm aku ada ternampak satu kalibat yg sungguh suspicious *apa kian melayu nya ni um...apa ah? meragukan...* no..no golden heart ..bukan tikus..no..no..bukan jua lipas...mun bnr lipas aku tah yg mula2 naik atas meja ofis..aku ternampak mcm si damit...iatah maybe my eyes playin tricks on me, al maklum lah kan, pagi2 mata masih lagi adjusting, tapi banar bah mcm kedia, *ku liat and ku dgr suaranya ....hah....sah...!!! memang ia ne, iatah lakas2 ku membuat keraja, mcm org sibuk kan hal negara..haha...actually nya malas ku kan meliat ia, apatah lagi kan melayan..meluat you~







sedang ku asyik mengira2 tiba2 pintu ofisku di ketuk2, well without turning my heads, i know who'se the one who knocking..*but because i dont wan't to hurt his feeling i turned my head and smile lah at him, he said "hai yan" and i just gave my winning smile lah..benciku ey...takidum2 ya ..


that time, mcm kambang bnr bah ya ah, bos nya pun ada masa tu, ia ani lagi mcm kan biasa2 sama pekerja laki2 kami ah, aku mcm org bangang mendangar diorang bercakap2 , kata bosnya" bah apalagi? belanja tia makan" n then pekerja kami ani lagi palui, tau sudah aku inda mau friendly2 sama si damit...jgn tah di galakkan kedia atu..makin tia kambang..durang ani ah..siapa2 saja dgn ku gerenti suruhnya makan di keluar..kan minta tapau pakah? heh baik pulang time si damit katuk pintu ku atu , ku pusing kepalaku sampai jua 360 degree mcm cerita dalam "exorcist" ah tungkal x ya ...


anyway yg ku hairan ani si damit ani pernah said to me in a text msg that ia ada sudah yg punya...*like i care tekarang* i mean, kalau ada tah banar ada udah bepunya..jgn tah kambang2 bckp tempat pekerja kami yg ia kan blanja makan...what the fuck dude? ku gerudi karang kapala ah..setipal kami basar x ah ...ku setipal krg mulut ah...*andangnya aku ani, bckp mcm ani, mun ku sasak kan org atu antam saja tia...who cares..it's my feelings and it's my blog..my freedom lah to express my emotion in here,




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