Paloi !! Bnr tah paloiii

Paloi~ jgn ku di tanya apa yg ku sasak kn. Rasa kn ku hantam org ah..Luan jua pelupa bnar , otakmu d mana kan ko simpan selama ane? D lutut?, mcmana ko bepikir kn? Menyasal ku dulu slalu mrh2 tmpt..XXX..,patut nya aku mrh tmpt mu bh, apa yg kau buat selama ane? Apa tau mu? Apa yg ko belajar? Langsung nada? Paloi tah ko a2 bnar, rasa kn menampar bh mua mu ah! Bae...Rasa kn ku pulas2 ,bgi lada padi, bgi batu berapi bh mulut mu ah, aku yg malu, aku yg sasak, psl ko yg buat mistake. Ko punya psl muaku yg beconteng..Pandai2 lah skit, mengawal mulut munjung mu a2, ada paham kah?, nda ku tkt kn kau,

Peraturan utk penunggang motorsikal

Hairan ku..Kenapa penunggang motorsikal mcm nada peraturan di jln raya a2 kian?, aku tau lah bkn semua rider nya show off, aku tau lah durang cool berabis, mun aku wah, aku pun mau kn ride motorsikal and show off, bt jln raya ane bkn tmpt show off berabiz, kn laju2 ala lumba grand prix ,mun kn belumba beramai2 bkn d jln raya public..Mau mampus apa? Kn belumba ke liang lahad kah?



yes, i kno~ beramai2 bemotosikal andang nda salah tapi nda ta pyh laju x ah, bkn nya mask rider..Mcm handal bnr kn laju2 n mcm kn menyelamatkn dunia usulnya..,mun bnar manasja tah kmu..,bkn kah jln raya ani ada 2 jalan sehala kan, yg kiri sma kanan, tpi knapa rider motosikal boleh pkai tangah2 a2 kn?, sampit peliatan ku, mcm menyamak bnar, nda pun ku nampak tangah2 jln rya a2 khas utk motosikal, kdang2 ada jua ku liat motosikal memutung2, bninya x kn beranak iata gagas x ya,kn tekeluar x anaknya,bkn sja motosikal, org bekerita pun sma jua, brunei ane damit, jln rya pun bkn nya sentiasa sunyi, mcm2 kn d dgr, hit n run pun ada, pandai melanggar org tpi nda pandai tgung jwp, biar lmbt asal selamat, mun telampau lmbt mcm kura2,bek plang jln kaki ,jimat minyak,nda bepedah bekerita toh

Tangah2 dunia?

Mcm2 sja ckp org brunei ani, aku pun keliru, dulu msa aku peumuran dlm 10 tahun, aku tu bckp2 sama cousin ku dapan pintu, tiba2 dtg pengiran kan lalu tmpt pintu ah, bisai g kta nya "bahapa kamu badiri2 dapan pintu ane kan? Tangah2 dunia bh kamu badiri ah, cuba siring2!"



cousin ku andang tau udah maksud pengiran a2, tpi aku yg bangang berabis, biasa~ dulu lmbt loading,lgipun cna jua kn tau, if org nda mengajar, i mean aku bangang bkn apa, befikir ku x tu ah, bkn bh, mcmana boleh pengiran atu tau yg tmpt kmi berdiri tu tangah2 dunia?, main besukat udah kah? Tebayang g tu bumi bulat pusing2 pat angkasa, tpi cna bleh ia tau tu? Jadi knapakn ? Apakah yg akn terjadi jika kmi bdiri tengah2 dunia? Ada black hole kah tmpt atu, like if ada black hole does it suck us into somewhere else?,

My purpose?

I don't know what to do?, what to aim for?, what to search in life?, i don't have any motivation, its like half of my soul, gone!



i'm afraid of death, but thats not stopping me frm thinking one, no, im nt suicidal,tpi just my mind ane sumtimes lingering ntah kmana,every people need sum1, but what if u got no one?, having a friends is nt d same as having family, a friend no matter how close they are, there is stil sum gap missing,

Hari terburuk dan tersedih

Sungguh tak ku sangka dan tak ku duga hari2 ku yg biasa bertukar menjadi hari2 yg paling sedih ku alami, bu bnr tah , nda dpt ku sangka atu kali terakhir aku becakap,ketawa,marah sama meliat kita, walaupun byk kali ku berharap supaya sakit mu di bgi tmpt ku,

Andai aku punya duit berjuta

#1. Gerenti ku beli kereta suzuki swift, kereta idaman x ah coz cute usulnya, porshe, ferarri, modified tu, plus dlm nya ada mp3,laptop,dvd player,speaker,gps tracker, dgn sticker,sport rim,twin exhaust..

#2. Aku mau beli motorsikal sport, dulu minat harley davidson tpi krg byk dah jenisnya, suzuki pun ok jua, skuter kah




#3. Beli dua tiga buah rumah, untuk my real mom..My foster family and me, nda tah payah jauh2,dekat2 aja ha3, besebalahan, aku suka rumah buatan british, 2 atau 3 tingkat,cukup dgn gym, swimming pool, tmpt main badminton, skuash, environment friendly bleh pkai solar energy, garden luas with lots of trees n flowers, especially lavender,

#4. Buat bangunan hotel utk di sewa, ckup dgn restaurant,utk shopping, cinema, garden, mcm beach resort pun ok tu.

#5. Aku mau sponsor filem hollywood n pelakon utama gerenti kate moennig, angelina jolie atau lindsay lohan. Sponsor ghost hunter pun ok.

#6. Aku mau keluar negara, mcm ke jepun..Canggih x ah teknologi nya, liat artis2 manga,bli anime, mkn sushi,udon,sake~,negara bersejarah san francissco, l.A tmpt l word belakon, new york city tmpt shopping, ke u.K,london england,ireland,scotland,new zealand ,las vegas tmpt entertainment,kn gamble,liat konsert, disneyland waha3

#7. Visit bar yg ada label rainbow ha3,

#8. Smbung blajar secara private or ke U.K, london,perth australia manatau kejumpahan c vin sma stan,blajar art, blajar menulis,

#9. Donate ke tmpt org miskin, breast cancer, elderly people,

#10. Opening my own shop, but since dvd,vcd shop is nt goin on so well lately beta find sumthn else to sell *sigh* supplier g

#11.Buy anything my love one wants.

#12. Save it for future.

It's official

Hey, golden heart, how r u today? Btw if u punya nick golden heart which mean heart of gold than it does suits u, ur heart so pure x ah wha3 bnar, if my nick maybe broken heart which mean hati yg slalu rosak ha3 mcm sakit hati bunyi nya, confirm dats me, n i like the sound of dat. Nda plang ku ska org buat ctu to me ,i jz like nick nya sja, ha3 me who hold the heart of darkness, mmg skit ati ne ,ada ubt nya kah?



banyak kwn..Gerenti byk jua lawan nya, nda ja, nda ku pandai kn menjaga hati, apa yg ku fikir logik sma lurus iatah ku practice selama ani, i mean mostly i dont lie , nda ku pandai, klau ku menipu gerenti nampak di raut n gerak geri ku tu, i'm human bkn alien, even so i did lie klau terpaksa, manusia ane bh nada yg jujur seratus peratus, trust who u cn trust, ppl like me who used to be lonely need someone like u, to motivate me, to give me advice, coz i kno time will come sooner or later that i will feel deep loneliness. A person like me , cn be fragile even if i do look tough, a person like me will never be afraid to do stupid things when cnt endure sadness, suicidal? Im too coward to do dat ,bt people cnt be predicted so who knws.

Im jz stating things sja, nothing to blog about so im wasting my time rambling,

Bad karma x

Banar tah, sebatah ku ada argument dgn c garfield / "g" , mcm weird my feelings atu, bkn dri segi romantika d amor ah , just plain weird saja, gerenti ne aku ada bad karma, doing bad things to others n it will return to u, yakan? Aku ane jahat meh? I mean ofcoz i admitted aku ani jahat tpi nda x over jahat ku mcm natural bitch heh, maybe aku kecarian x saja, aku a2 jua salah bh, buat decision in a rush kn throw her away jz like dat, no..Nda plang smpai ati, just ala merajuk sja, mau jua di pujuk, bt mmg its my fault lah, n aku terima kesalahan ku a2, tpi yg buatku panas sgt ani, tau udah aku ikhlas bgi ia crdt, bcoz of d argument ia kn byr blk th plang, sasak ku ey.



pernah ku text ia last sunday, aku gto yg msg atu iatah last msg ku bgi, and kalau aku ani ia pkir nda belurus bjanji jgn th bkwn dgn aku, bnar tah perkara a2 sebnrnya kecil bh bkn nya bsar, kirakn tah ah ia dtg d gdg lpas ngantar adinya n kakanya,ktanya ia smpai dh d gdg 9.30,aku d rumah time tu..So ku bgi ia text msg 10 min lgi ku dtg sna,ujan lgi turun so kn mandi lgi, smpai2 ku d gdg pkl 10,then ku text ia dmana time a2, ia reply mcm org mrh, sasak ia menunggu mcm c paloi nya,ngalih bpanya ngantar,jadi bpaku nda ngalih mengantar? Jadi aku nda pernah menunggu kau dulu? Pernah x ah ku menunggu ia sma jua mcm c paloi,dtg pkl 9 tpi ia langsung nda dtg psl bpanya nada,bjln, y nt msg ka aku dulu,nw msalah sma, at least aku dtg, apa jua lmbt 30 min berbanding dgn nda dtg langsung, ane tuduh nya g ia tau aku nda jadi, aku mls kn dtg sedangkn aku bnr2 kn jmpa ia, udah ku gto ia mlm a2 confirm aku dtg, wei "g" cubatah sabar sikit deh, awu adaka patut ia gto ia menunggu aku bjam2,btah jua 30 min a2 bgimu, ani kemarin ada ko send aku emoticon smiley, mls th ku membls,mun ko bgi salam tantu ku membls atau if u have sumthing 2 say..Aku ane mrh2 jua tpi skajap sja, atau kdang2 mrh ku ani bedendam tpi klau ku smpai ati sja which is rare. Liat lah nanti sma ada gatal tgn ku kn menagur kau,i mean pkai text lah,

c mr.Playboy pun ada tdi time ku break, off ia harini, saturday ia half day x, dont kno if he wana c me, ia ane bemusim, paning ku schedule kerajanya,lpas 2 hari kaja then 1 off, sunday fulltime, ish i tot ia forgot dah apa yg ku promise kmarin, ystdy ia half day so ia k gdg kn ke cyber cafe n jmpa aku terus lah, im nt seriously into him, jz better nt to gv %100 my heart n trust a2, coz i kno its gona be painful klau broken heart lgi..,

Arg!! Exercise

Payah wah kn exercise without someone to accompany you, i read dalam article kan,katanya kalau kn do exercise much better do it with someone,coz it can be enjoyable,mcm klau tired gerenti nda sadar tu and lagi klau with someone boleh challenge each other..Motivate you to do even further,ani kalau sorang2 apa ada? Nothing..Boring x ah, kalau ke gym malas ku, coz kalau public nda tah ku suka tu, unless klau kn show off tmpt pretty girls ok lah x ,ha3,



i want to do hard exercise tpi exercise yg ku suka, mcm badminton, cycling , dodgeball, squash kah, o tennis cheh, tpi nada dangan ane tah payah, semua bz and ada g nda mau, y nt? Its for health gpun yg ada advantage diri jua nanti..If only ada trainer kn d upah kn bgus like every weekend kah ikut schedule do some workout sma trainer..And the place mcm gym is yours for an hour kah depends on the payment, or mcm dlm "the biggest looser" ah,diorang pkai trainer to push them doing hard exercise, i don't mind lebih2 th lgi if trainer a2 hot ~ nda ja,

bh puan2 dan tuan2 sepertimana aku bgitau b.F.F ku c goldenheart , resepi senaman yg gerenti mujarab, berkesan ne, tpi do it on your own risk ha3 ,bhan2 nya butter milk, 1 red meat , 1 glass of milk, seutas tali sma sebatang kayu..Sma main item yg utama,mesti ada ne,mun nada nda menjadi..Ok~ "seikung kuyuk" - ya puan2 dan tuan2, mula2 gaulkn butter milk sma red meat tadi sagai lambut n lemak berkrim dsukai ramai ,k, n then ikat dan gantungkan rah kayu tadi, ok~ minum dulu 1 glass of milk tadi so nda "dehydrate" nanti, n then ampirkn tia brg2 tadi pat kuyuk ah, kalau ada tanda2 nya kn membubut dats mean its working, cuba klau buleh belari kaliling kg, ok! Warning: pilih kuyuk yg cute2 mcm chihuahua,dalmatian kh, jgn pilih kuyuk bulldog atau yg bakurap2, lainlah klau telampau desperate bnr kn belari!

Mau yg simple? Um~ msk lam penjara ah, gerenti mkn minum free, diet nya pun ok, bejadual x ah,mun sya nda sya mau toh..

Tringat tah ku nah pasal skit g kn terperangkap pat kaja, betutup udh bh pintu blakang kn kna kunci,nda dorang tau aku d dlm meh? Ee sasak ku, if serius y nt check dulu ada org kh nda d dlm ofis sebelum kn menutup, if beibun,dude u guys gone too far, if i hadn't gone out the ofis like 10 second tadi i probably spending my nite at the shop, pitch dark and alone, u want me to die kah? Mun ku kejumpahan antu wa dlm sana gelap2 entah d mana tah kn btapuk blari? Bkn nya ghost hunter ne, ghost hunter pun bdangan x ah, ada g torch light segala,plus cameraman, ane sorang2, nda ku sanggup!! Esk ntah gerenti ketawa ne durang ah, mrh ku tadi tmpt c bayang,ku tumbuk2 bdan nya ,ku kusuti rambut nya ha3 nda ku smpai ate kn mrahi bnr2,mun ku mrh bnr bh gerenti taus kes polis ne,men behantam..Tabal kn sja mua,tuli kn sja talinga,babaukn sja mulut,nda ulah,esk kuar ku awal2..

Kawan?

Subject kawan?, klau kn becerita mengenai kwn ani, memang nda pandai berabis lah, coz ragam kwn2 ani lain, diorang ani mempunyai sifat yg berlainan, mcm dlm kata peribahasa "rambut sama hitam tapi hati lain2", bkn semua kwn2 yg tani suka,bkn semua kwn2 ani baik, tpi pandai2 tah sja memilih kwn kdang2 ada yg dapan2 baik tpi d belakang aduhai bkn main jahat, kdang2 ada org ska bekwn dgn org baik kdang2 ada org ska bkwn jahat2, it's depend on d individual lah, what they want in a friend,


klau aku jgn tah d tanya jenis kwn mana yg ku suka, ku layan jua..Jahat kah o baik kh whatever bh, janji jgn smpai menyakiti atiku udah, aku ani mun di kirakan penyabar,ok jua lah tpi mcm manusia lain jua x ah, ada had2 nya, aku ani moody org nya ada msanya ku baik,ada jahatnya jua, mun bkwn dgn org mcm aku ane gerenti nada yg tahan,aku orgnya "fair" , if my friend treat me nice so y nt treat them nice too, tpi if they treat me bad thats what i'm gona gv them also, what for if diorang treat me bad n aku mcm c palui melayan baik kn? Bt kalau i consider them b.F.F manasaja, jhat pebaik ku layan,ku terima jua, i do cherish My B.F.F, i do anything selagi mampu, bkn snang kn mencri B.F.F ani, need time, need trust, jgn mcm c paris hilton, buat tv show utk mencri B.F.F, apa faedahnya lau kn mencri friend yg gila harta,glamour,popularity?,nda bth tu, mun skadar utk publicity bh nda tahan tu..Forever mean for a lifetime x ah,

abg sham & tomoi

tadi my bro kahwin..selamat pengantin bari to norisham & norainah a.k.a abg sham & tomoi...semoga berkekalan hingga ke anak cucu...pak2 gedebung2 ... tadi suasana nya meriah lah jua ..it's just kami nda berapa kenal sgt org sana...ada plang kenal2 tapi sikit saja...abg suhaimi ada ia menagur aku tadi..ia betanya di mana ku keraja etc..ah tadi masa on the way kan kerumah abg sham ani bah fuyoo bukan main laju lagi abg azizul ah mendrive kerita...mcm dlm track tah plang .. ingat kereta lumba? potong kiri kanan, speed nya alahai bukan main..angguk2 bah kerita...adaka patut diorang pikir yg si amoi atu kaka ku..no lah adi ku tu..i know2 usul ku ani not mature...mcm kanak2 but i think thats a compliment right ...ha3... anyway time di kem tadi si amoi ada with ia punya fiance...chewah sama colour bajunya sama tunangnya ..seiring dan sejalan...~ ia pakai baju kurung coklat ..katanya bajunya ia sendiri mereka fashion nya ... aku nda jua tau pasal fashion2 ani... si amoi pakai kacamata but i can see ia punya eyes like mine brown in colour hehe and ketara bah kulitnya putih dari aku..betapa jelesnya aku..aku ada nampak abg teruna tadi jua..pakai baju melayu hijau ya..tagurnya ku jua..mula2 mana ku kenal tu..







si amoi ada bagitau aku yg ia kan kahwin bulan may ani jua 31hb...so abg sham jadi wali lah tu...not sure ia bnr2 mau jemput aku or nda coz aku tau mamanya atu pemarah...ada conflict with our real family...so strict...lihatlah nanti if abg sham bawa kesana...,so after that..kami ke tempat pengatin bini lah, escort abg sham kesana...chewah abg sham hehe ia ni hensem nda jua ..sadang..tapi hitam manis..senyumannya atu bah manis..ha3 mun putih hensem x..pakai baju pengantin hijau ia ...my family ikut dlm kereta si amoi and tunangnya lah..u know what tunangnya di galarnya si damit...kerja shell..jasra? ok jua usulnya...awu ..dua kali lima jua lajunya...kereta pengantin pun laju ani bah ,potong kiri kanan..adeh~ lakap melakap bah perhiasan kereta ah..ha3 , jauh jua tempat si tomoi ah sanggup jua abg sham mengantar mengambil ia balik kaja..mcm dari mulaut ke tempat si tomoi ni dlm setengah jam bah..melintasi jerudong...entah apakan nama tmpt nya ..nda ku hapal...sampai di sana ah bukan main panjang traffic nya...payah kan masuk..jln lagi sampit...abg sham suruhnya kmi jln dulu..oi bang ..kami mana lagi ingat mana satu rumah si tomoi ah, krg lurus salah rumah di masuki...krg lurus salah pengantin...bini org krg kita kahwini ha3...and ia punya hantaran well..nda pakai bas rupanya durang pkai kereta biasa saja..plus nada hadrah..iatah panic kmi bah..nda teratur...tapi ok lah semua lancar akhirnya...ia ku suka sana atu ada org belagu2 pengantin..nda pyh lagi pkai hadrah2 ..ada g org menari2 .. org menari ani ada ku teliat mcm tua umur dlm 50 x bini2...waduh rancak banar tariannya..ramai kana liat..cukup dgn tarian geruda sama gerudi lagi chewah baruya...kana sorak2...then banyak laki2 menari sorak2 mengelilingi bini2 ah ..so bini2 tu tangah2 wah popular jua ..pakaiannya moden x ah baju kebaya befesyen..cukup dgn kacamata item sama wah rmbutnya ber dye miah yo..atu rugged...mun batt ku nda low bah ..ku gmbr ya udah...handal ey...wa tabik sama lu la....

surprise

duh~ no lah...i wish it could happen that way ..but no.. so ku translate saja dlm bahasa melayu...actually nya aku malas kan bercerita english atu .. lain pulang ku taip di sana...melarat ke alam fantasi...so realiti nya ani nah...


well, that morning like always, ku masak air panas untuk bos ku..ia mun karing leher iatah jadi minuman nya tu..*cubatah masak sendiri ja* hehe then lepas atu buatlah keraja macm susun2 fail, masukkan kertas document dlm fail, sama mengira2 jumlah harga stock untuk auditor nanti, tiba2 mcm aku ada ternampak satu kalibat yg sungguh suspicious *apa kian melayu nya ni um...apa ah? meragukan...* no..no golden heart ..bukan tikus..no..no..bukan jua lipas...mun bnr lipas aku tah yg mula2 naik atas meja ofis..aku ternampak mcm si damit...iatah maybe my eyes playin tricks on me, al maklum lah kan, pagi2 mata masih lagi adjusting, tapi banar bah mcm kedia, *ku liat and ku dgr suaranya ....hah....sah...!!! memang ia ne, iatah lakas2 ku membuat keraja, mcm org sibuk kan hal negara..haha...actually nya malas ku kan meliat ia, apatah lagi kan melayan..meluat you~







sedang ku asyik mengira2 tiba2 pintu ofisku di ketuk2, well without turning my heads, i know who'se the one who knocking..*but because i dont wan't to hurt his feeling i turned my head and smile lah at him, he said "hai yan" and i just gave my winning smile lah..benciku ey...takidum2 ya ..


that time, mcm kambang bnr bah ya ah, bos nya pun ada masa tu, ia ani lagi mcm kan biasa2 sama pekerja laki2 kami ah, aku mcm org bangang mendangar diorang bercakap2 , kata bosnya" bah apalagi? belanja tia makan" n then pekerja kami ani lagi palui, tau sudah aku inda mau friendly2 sama si damit...jgn tah di galakkan kedia atu..makin tia kambang..durang ani ah..siapa2 saja dgn ku gerenti suruhnya makan di keluar..kan minta tapau pakah? heh baik pulang time si damit katuk pintu ku atu , ku pusing kepalaku sampai jua 360 degree mcm cerita dalam "exorcist" ah tungkal x ya ...


anyway yg ku hairan ani si damit ani pernah said to me in a text msg that ia ada sudah yg punya...*like i care tekarang* i mean, kalau ada tah banar ada udah bepunya..jgn tah kambang2 bckp tempat pekerja kami yg ia kan blanja makan...what the fuck dude? ku gerudi karang kapala ah..setipal kami basar x ah ...ku setipal krg mulut ah...*andangnya aku ani, bckp mcm ani, mun ku sasak kan org atu antam saja tia...who cares..it's my feelings and it's my blog..my freedom lah to express my emotion in here,

headache

how i wish to go home early today...jam ani batah tia lagi kan beputar...ish...baiknya di belikan tia kali jam ani bateri baru...manatau jadi laju...ataupun tunggu manager ku ke toilet kali lakas2 ku lajukan jarumnya kali...*awu...ujung2 gugur jam dinding atu atas kapala...udah tah barat mcm besi...mun takana bah bemara ne...! abis bedarah-darah mua...tapikan mun kapala pacah ..boleh kali di gam pakai masking tape atu?...im~ supa glue kah tampal pkai karatas pasir...adui~!!! apasaja yg ku pikirkan ane? parah2...!!!!!!!!!!!!




parah!!!! limau!!!!!! bukan kapala parah...masih lagi bafungsi warainya ne...oh yes..!! all i need now is wait for another hour....god!!! these takes forever...oh come on baby~~ gagas ku kan baliks...nada org buat jam dinding pakai remote kah..sanang jua kan di tukar waktu2 nya...


ugh~!! oh yeah!! to chiccoyanee .. TERIMA KASEY > byk2 kerana sudi bawa mkn kemarin di Q. it was really nice...next time it's gonna be my treat...please remind me about it...coz im so forgetful sometimes...plus sorry andangnya amai bnar tangan ku ... for real will treat you anything u wana eat as long as it's "edible" and "not human" *kalau di izinkan bertemu lagi lah...we don't know what will happen rite?

lunch with taz

just like mandy said...i was having lunch with a "friend" of mine...garfield a.k.a taz..., i was so surprised that she's waiting for me..coz the other they she did text me that she couldn't have lunch with me today.. i was happy though...but ..uh~ it was a very bad timing..um...~ anyway!!..~ at the end we had our lunch at food court..heh~




taz really don't know what she wanted to eat...she can't make up her mind...i't took her a long time to order some food...me ? i just ordered mee goreng mamak and milo ping *it was good* and she ordered um? chicken rice and ...abc..., btw these is a habit of mine when eating out with taz..i tend to hide all the spoon and forks on the table...heheh why? coz everytime we eating out it seems to me that her food always arrived first than mine...*i was thinking that..if i hide the spoons and forks..than she can't eat right? i don't want she finishes her food before mine came...* as for her habit..i guess she sometimes waited for me to drink and when the time is right she would make some silly and stupid jokes...often i nearly spills the drink in my mouth because of her.


why the hell she did that? i don't know...no idea...ehem* bepikir jua ku tu kaliah...ia lagi slalu duduk depan2 ku..so sekiranya tah ia buat joke bila time ku minum atu...don't u think..that..kalau nda tetahan kan ketawa lagi...segala yg ku minum atu gerenti uh~ tesimbur tempat ia...? bukan me yang basah .. kan? kan? ofcoz i'd be malu..d mana kan menapuk muka ? bwh meja?


anyway time duduk2 tu ceta2 si taz ada ternamapk kwn nya time skulah...but they nda tegur2 lah *JANGAN TEGUR ~~* heheheh kwn nya atu order makanan di sana jua...but when i saw kwn nya tu ah even skali imbas saja...mcm ok wah...cool...with dyed short hair..white skin etc..p.s: kwn nya tu a girl..wow..~ i said to her..lawa kwn mu ah..napa u nda mau tackle ia? ... si taz ckp "bowh bhapa..bgf kali udah tu ah~" but even so rugi tu kta me lah ...hehehe


taz: nda aku ada 2 bf udah...


after having lunch we went for a smoke tempat around sana jua lah bukan tempat biasa...apa byk org lalu2 kan turun naik...i told her i don't like to smoke in public but gagas punya pasal whatever lah...si taz nya " ada time atu aku gagas wah~ laju bnar ni jln ku ah...iatah...masa tu aku tu kan melintas jln raya .. sampai pertengahan jalan atu...tepelicuk tah ku..tegugur ku taus.."

me: bowh..tegugur bah..banar deh?

taz: awu banar..telampau gagas ku bah time atu..iatah tegugur ku..brg2 dlm beg ku abis tekeluar"

me: ha3 yakan? macamana style nya ko gugur ah? style matrix ? mcm uh~ kepala mu dulu mengampas lantai kah etc"

taz: nda plang sampai mcmatu .. kirakan teduduk ku bah tarus"

me: so mcmana tah ? ada org lintas2 jua and ada keta beranti jua kah?

taz: keta masa tu nada plang tapi ada jualah org melintas dapan ku..malu kaliah ku iatah laju2 ku mengambil brg ku gugur..gincu ku apa etc..

me: kau atu jua nda pernah nda gagas...

taz: bah bila lagi tane jln..bth udah nda jln2 mcm dulu..

me: liatlah mun beduit..apa guna berjln tanpa duit..?

si putih mandy

i went to my friend shop today and i saw unfamiliar face, smiling at me, she said "hai" as if she knew me, do i know her? um~ *thinking* probably i do know her but i guess i'm so forgetful sometimes. so i went up to my friend...she was doing some work at the back...arranging some stuff...as usual. as i walked toward's her...my friend mandy gave me that look,





mandy: hey..i saw you just now with your gf...so sweet

me: huh? no she's a "friend"

mandy: is it? :P

me: yea..it is..i told you before didn't i .. just friend...

mandy: i don't believe you...you're so sweet with her..i can see it

me: ugh..whatever..anyway where's j ?

mandy: ah yes she's off today...

me: owh *that's a relieved coz just a couple's of days ago they were having a fight..and i thought she's transfer to ther branch..* so today you're working with the girl at the front?

mandy: yeah...

me: owh...she's nice and her skin is so white...

mandy: is that so? heh i got white skin too you know infact whiter than her...you never compliment me about it..then you see her today .. you compliment her instead of me..

me: ah~ no..hey where you going?

*mandy went to the girl and told her about it...obviously i don't know what to say so i just listened..the girl smile and she's saying something to mandy .. but i couldn't catch on whatever they're saying coz they're using their foreign language..not that i don't understand but i just couldn't concentrate heheheh..
well mandy does look whiter than her...

me: yeah...okay..i get it..your skin is whiter than her okay mandy?

mandy: i know...

*btw i forgot what her name...totally blank...

whatever

nothing much to do...just stay at home...i don't really care anymore...what happens just happens...just go with the flow...it's just like having so many paths in front of me but i don't want to take my chances so i just sit back and relax...waiting for something to happen or something to guide me ... i'm so tired of finding and searching..hoping ..i might as well just give up . stranded on a boat in the middle of nowhere...the sea just too big for me ..lost the way and no sense of direction. waiting for someone to save me, mmm~


why yan? why do you have to be so hard to yourself?





i hate my past ...i hate to what i've became now...i hate myself...i hate everything...!!




god how i need some workout...i really envy some chinese people...they tend to go out with their friends and family...going to some park or somewhere they can enjoy and at the same time do some workout...healthy life huh? i wish i have my own personal gym...coz if i do have one i don't have to asked friends and people to accompany me..my manager a chinese who'se on her 40's always went to the park with her family, almost everyday...so nice to see them..doing such activities...i need to find someone who'se interest are the same as mine...but where?

Bernafas dlm lumpur-awie

Lama mana lagi~
hendak ku turutkan~
kata telunjuk yg menuding kepalaku~

sabar apa lagi~
hendak ku katakan~
hingga aku bernafas bagai dlm lumpur~
kasihan...~

wajah kita sama~
beza pada gaya~
itu pilihan masing2 yg empunya~

mungkin pada usia~
rasa yg berbeza~
yg penting kita saling hormat menghormati~
panduan...~

kita tak dpt bersama~
namun kita juga manusia~
kita punya rasa cinta~
masing2 punya harga~

mahu apa lagi~
akan ku korbankn~
selagi ada hayatku dikandung badan~

oh..Terima kasih~
kerana balasan~
semoga sejahteralah hidup semua~
oh..Kawan....~

Misteri mimpi syakilla-awie.

Di manakah menghilang~
diriku sendiri~
hanyut dalam bayangan~
sebuah misteri...~
harum tiada wajah~
mengelilingi aku~
dgn suasana~
yg terharu~

lukisan impianku~
gambaran di mana~
cuaca yg begini~
apakah mahunya...~

aku hanyalah aku~
nyanyi lagu yg rindu~
lemah langkahku~
mengejarmu....~

bila pun engkau menjelma~
di sini aku berdiri...~
ku menanti...~

walau hilang ceritamu~
di hati tetap abadi~
sentuhanmu...~

mana syakilla..~
siapa syakilla..~
aku pun tak tahu...~

Diambang wati - awie

Yg putih bersih~
dalam gita kama~
si ratu yg dirindu~
persis citra sakti~
mimpi insan...~

di ambang wati~
di dasar hati~
dan diri yg menyeru sumpah..~
sehangat nyawa bergelora~
terbuka hendaknya~
pintu segala azam~
malam antara malam~
sepasang rembulan..

Kembali terpatri~
panji sejahtera~
mengotakan janji silam~

asmara...~
kejar mengejar hujungnya..~
sepanjang hari beredar~

mengukur bayangan berahi~
menghitung detik perpisahan~
mendamba~
kepangkuan kekasih~
menangis dlm kesyahduan...~

yang murni...~

Sejati - awie

Sejati...
Itu yg kau ucapkan~
bila janji ku genggam~
bawah pohon kemboja~
yg sekecil kita~
menanti...~
di mahligai mainan~
kita bina bersama~
dari dahan~
yg rapuh...~
usia perangkap kita~
remaja kita tinggalkn~
namun aku masih~
menggenggam janji~
tinggal kenangan~
gagal segala impian~
tinggal bertanya~
erti sejati...
Kenangan itu~
hanya mainan bagimu..
Tinggal bertanya~
erti sejati...~
yg telah engkau janjikn dulu..~

Klau belum ready jgn gagas kan kahwin

Kpd wanita2 yg di luar sana tu, kalau udah buat decision kn kwin sma bf atu, pkir dlu msk2, ani kdang2 ada yg nda jadi kn kwin,


i mean cuba tah ah, klau kn ubah pkiran atu at least provide good reason, one of my fren, a guy, plan kn get married wt this girl, tapi d girl d cancelnya n taus putus ani bh, reason coz the guy got many debt, cheh~ ya meh?If u luv d guy y nt helping each othr, entah2 yg d guy ani hvin affair x, i kno hm,so ada possibility,either way~ if kn kwin tu should hv deep commitment,blum apa2 udah tia putus..

ur the best b.f.f

i'm not sure what am i supposed to do? if only i know what i want in life , hey goldenheart cheer me up will ya~ btw thank q sooo much ... u helped me alot...i bought already the things so i just try it if it work...i have no idea about these stuff so thanx ...

aku terkena dek april fool mu

wooo...! sampai ati mu wooo!!! tsk tsk ada ka patut aku terkena dek april fool yg u bagi goldenheart oi, awu jauh udah pandangan ku, banartah ku bayang2 kan udah bis si zul beranak pinak ulih mu, mendudui anak, menukar2 lampin...me atu jua telampau pecaya ..u ane lagi satu pandai u ah~ chewah beceta ani wah cam bana...me apalagi angguk2 saja tah waha3 astagana2 time u beceta tu kan ... jeles me u ckp ia kawin udah ah plus ada package g tu dgn anak segala...waduh2 koq kamu gimana ya...hu3 yang suspen nya time u ckap g ia ada pasan pat me...me bayang kan dah yang ia nda mfkan me etc *tau2 lah me jahat dulu rahnya...if di bagi peluang bah me kan tebus balik kesalahan me tu...pike ta ia bedandam..o ia ada kaja yang lebih baik dari me...coz me ingat yg u ada gto me ia ada buat image/melukis kan2?? me tah yg mula2 jeles tu lau ia jadi pelukis ah..~





btw me ada search ia pat google but no luck ey...i really2 wana know what she doin ryte now..i mean i'm curious bah ...kan ingin tau jua me tu...hehe um~ u know what ...i give u compliment coz you "berjaya" lah ..me plang lupa kan give u april fool wa~ cheh nampaknya tpaksa me kumpul bahan2 dulu ni...aku tak rela you...aww..~



kalau ku cakap lah time april fool yg me kwin bah "pecaya kan u tu" haha gerenti nda u cya kali...

rimas jadi friendly

a guy i know from work...you can call him mr.T ...he's married and working in his family bussiness. got kids and probably in their teen now. evertytime he sees me , ia blanja food...i'm like all ears ..i mean i listened to his problem. i don't know why people opened up to me...cheh~ rimas bah coz sometimes if im friendly people slalu salah sangka .. like they see me friendly..(i am actually) but rimas wa...ingat aku ani pakar psikologi? tmpt org mengadu...sedangkan masalah ku sendiri lagi payah2 kan di solve.. well org mengadu tmpt ku..aku mengadu tmpt you (goldenheart) hua3 seriously he tried to talked to me about his marriage .. personal life and his affair..whoa chill out dude...he asked me for adviced...opinion...etc...how am i gonna do that? i don't know what "love" is? never experience any serious relationship or falling over heel on someone (except uh~mrs.V, mrs.M, mrs.A, mrs.Y, and mr. D)

ada lagi tu lingka yang meluahkan perasaannya tmpt ku..rimas2.. cali ada jua...but his ok friendly...at least he know his boundary...






there's so many people i met .. lain2 species nya...but layan saja tia...bnar kata my b.f.f i got these weird aura...im attracting weird people.
kanak2 pun ada yang weird jua..mcm the brat yg slalu dtg tempat keraja ku ah..nakal banar abis brg ku nda pernah selamat..especially mkanan and minuman yg ku bawa..mcm vacumn cleaner wa ia ah..skajap abis mkanan olehnya..brapa kali udah ku marahi ,bukannya kamin takut ..makin plang ia suka x..pengatil kanak2 nya. actually ia ani telampau cute wa..kalah barbie di kadai mcm teddy bear udah peliatan ku. asal dtg sana ..selamba duduk siring2 ku ..mula tia becerita mcm2...pandai g buat2 cerita...


no..bukannya cerita "pada suatu hari ada seikung kura2 bla bla bla atu!" i mean kalau ia becerita wa " ate...tonight i asked your bf to pick us at 8 o'clock, we have dinner and then bla bla bla hotel bla bla kiss " bowh skalinya becerita... (she's only 11 yrs old) heh...*btw siapa kah yg di ucapnya bf ku ah - thomas edison

malar sabut2 nya tu thomas edison ah...pikir tah bf nya...sasak2 ku kan ku search tempat internet...

rupa2 nya THOMAS EDISON ani american inventor...if you refer tmpt internet wa..u liat saja picture nya alahai tua x ah.. mcm org bersejarah usulnya dari zaman batu...kuno2

wha nice house ..

forwarded email






wha nice house kan...mcm rumah org beusin...








aiks bowh..! baruya dapannya bukan main lawa..batu segala...di belakangnya chewah..gerenti inda cukup budget ni kan renovate entire house...cukup2 untuk dapan rumah ganya kali budget nya...

butterfly man..

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really> what the hell is that?




is it just a hoax? fake? not sure about that?



forwarded email


or is it a mutated animal? insect? or is it a fairy?

toilet invader...

forwarded email...


whoa jadinya palanya ah menjangul .. membari beuri wah if bnar2 ada...

wicked tazmanian devil

today...as i was standing infront of c.h ... actually i was talking to the workers there...then suddenly ada these couple around my age or a bit younger than i am...dlm kereta putih...yg the girl lambai2..waving at me, and gave me a hand signal...i was stunned watching her..like my mind trying to recall who she was..uh~ actually me lupa plang sapa..buat2 kenal saja lah..ku bagi ia hand signal masuk kedalam jumpa aku..then baginya ku signal g..(nda dpt masuk..gagas) *kalilah eheh aku pun nda jua brapa paham signal2 ani...buat antam promo saja tia...





mlm aku log in msn...si taz ada log in jua...well i guess ia belum lagi rasa sihat ..still paning and mual. i don't know what the hell she ate yang membuatkan ia ada sakit paut..and unwell. uhuh ~ i think that remind me though last week when me and her jln2 buying food, she bought one fish/chicken burger and chicken rice...yang bnarnya i'm not buying food..at all..mkanan yg di belinya tu it's all for her to eat eheh..badan damit tapi selera alahai mengalahkan aku yo..tapikan tekana me nda rasa puas hati me tanya jua ia:

me: "uh~ taz makanan mu yang ko beli ani mcm untuk 2 org"

taz: " ah~ awu..biasalakn lapar banar ku, tadi pagi alum ku makan"

me: "whoa yakan..untuk u kah pikir tah untuk ku jua...putus harapan ku kan makan free"

taz; "hehe "

sedang kami makan2 *me pun ada bata kaliah ...me bata ...BATU BATA!!!! ehe no lah me bata cucuq udang yo..

me makan nda abis tapi mun si taz makan bah laju..pelahap bana ... abis dua2 .. langis ..

maybe ia ni banyak makan kali wah iatah kali sakit paut..

anyhow hope she's gonna be fine soon...so back to the msn thing...we were talking about something...about ehem my x-gf..how i miss em, etc2
i got an opportunity to asked her "how about you? where's ur gf?huhuhu *she doesn't have one..i'm only teasing her lol..which she answer "nada ....." and then "u saja..." o.O like *should i be happy o not? probably she just teasing me back...the other day when we were smoking at the usual place ... there's these guy i knew...he's my fren bf...he saw me and taz...asking for a ciggarrete so i gave one to him .. he asked me wheteher taz is my gf coz he always saw me hanging out with her...huh~ after i gave him an answer he went back in his apartment. so i told taz about it..then taz asked me what did i answer him with.. i said "no" to him..."she's not"

"just say yes.."said taz...im not sure either she's joking or what...believe me, things with her is so complicated ..i'm just not sure whether she was joking or being serious..

there's time when we passed by one of the shop which taz friend work, pengkid girl...i heard taz friend saying "y didn't you text me." "y did't you reply" that make me jealous abit..but i don't really care..her friend thought i was taz girl...

i asked taz who her friend was ...which she reply "um~ an admirer~ she likes me but u know im not into that"

"owh~cool you've got an admirer~so what did you two talked about?"

"nothing much...just saying hi..and seeing you with me, she thought you're my girl"

"ah~and what did you say to that?"

"i told her , you are...ehe just to let her knw that i'm not available"

" i see..you're wicked as always..."

"yea .. i know"

nama lain bagi "khinzir"

Just for info..

Can We ask somebody who knows about this? We need the clearification

We can do our own little research as well…

FYI...Wallahuaklam

(got these info from a friend who email me)



Email #1

Sharing info on CHEESE which is used most in our local food operators & bakery (melalui Ceramah Ust Badrul Amin) last Sunday @ UIA :
Susu memerlukan sejenis bahan yg diperolehi dari perut mamalia (lembu & khinzir) utk membolehkan ianya 'beku' - separuh 'beku' dipanggil keju manakala 'beku' jadi 'whey powder'. Both ingredients are used widely in our daily food intake - pizza(s), cheese cakes, tart cheese or anything with cheese, cookies etc. The big Q - even if bahan dari perut 'lembu' being used to make the cheese - how do we know 'lembu' tu disembelih mengikut syariah Islam? How do we know the same 'lembu' being used in our food intake?

Unless, we (muslim) produced our own cheese - is there any in our local market? Pls share.

Conclusion - even tho memang payah, cuz kena explain panjang-lebar ngan my kids, InsyaAllah, Pizza Hut, Domino, anything contains CHEESE - gonna be NO NO from now on. This is not boikot but - menjaga akidah kita, semampu kita, within our control/power kerana ALLAH melalui penjagaan makanan kita yg akan menjadi darah daging.

Email #2
Talking about cheese, as said by ustaz, memang betullah untuk bekukan cheese tu, they need bahan dari perut khinzir atau lembu. Masa di States dulu, I studied Human Nutrition and my Jewish Prof. memang every now and then masa tu kept reminding me to check cheese yang I beli untuk class commercial food production, cos dia jewish pun tak makan khinzir, I mesti pastikan dari ingredients cheese tu yg bahan pembekunya must be pepsinogen [lembu] dan bukan rennet[khinzir]. Kalau di States, 70% cheese guna rennet.


*overall these is just for info k..saya nda sya tau jua , kana forwardkan kat email me so i just post it here..

Kalau dah "mentol"

Pada suatu pagi, seorang pakar jiwa terlihat salah seorang pesakitnya sibuk mengerjakan sesuatu.
Bila dihampiri ternyata pesakit yang sedang khusyuk duduk dilantai,sedang menggergaji sekeping papan dengan tangan kosongnya.

Seorang lagi sedang bergayut dari atas siling.

Doktor merapati pesakitnya dan bertanya apa yg dibuatnya duduk dilantai.

"Apa doktor tak nampak ke? Kan saya sedang gergaji papan ni untuk dibelah dua?" jawab pesakit dengan nada marah.

"Apa pulak sidia ni buat bergayut kat siling ?" tanya doktor sambil menuding jari ke pesakit yg lagi satu.

"Oh.. Dia kawan baik saya, tapi dia tu tak betul sikit..
Dia ingat dia tu mentol lampu!" jawab pesakit tadi.

"Kalau kawan baik awak, kenapa tak nasihatkan dia suruh turun. Supaya tak cedera kalau jatuh nanti ?" soal doktor lagi.

"Abis tu, macam mana saya nak habiskan kerja saya dalam gelap?"

got running nose..don't catch it

sejak beberapa hari ni aku ada selsema..mind you bukan bird flu ok..huhu...now today ..um~ what happened today? guess so far nothing much happened...man i was hoping kalau2 ada tah u.f.o turun ke bumi o alien kah visit my house ani huhu...that will be so cool wasn't it...oh yeah..




afternoon tadi my manager bought these food..heck i don't know what it was but it was tasty...at first ia mengunjukkan that food using a small stick...besarnya like tooth pick kali...and that time i was working on a paper o something...katanya.."nah mkanan ku beli..mcamana ku bagi ah..buka mulut.." uh~ i don't think thats a good idea..coz first the food kinda look couldn't fit in my mouth and second duh~ i'd be too embarrassed thinking that my manager gonna feed me like that..i was panicking... thats when suddenly sikit g that food kan gugur on top of my paper..bek jua ku sambut lakas2. eew..sticky coz ada mayonnaise .. rakat pat tangan yo...but anyhow a food is still a food...gotta eat it even if gugur ke meja pun ku makan jua huhu...today taz was absent,she didn't go to work coz she got sick.. mual? rasa muntah coz maybe salah makan? uu~ it's good if that's the reason but kalau yang reason semacam atu i don't know how to handle lah..bt she said she's gona absent tmrw too...now yesterday i'm the one who'se absent coz of the flu..my nose was running , i mean i got a running nose..uh heck u know what i mean...selsema lol bukan idung belarian k..huhu...anyway she wanted to see me yesterday and bring her lap top . man bad timing..everytime i wanna see her ada2 saja happened. now how can i teach her all about lap top? when i'm too having difficulties with it? mcm orang buta mengajar org buta...woh~ i'm no expert silap haribulan her lap top condemed because of me..u know me lah if anything i don't know i just men antam saja .. o kalau frust sangat men behampas lah tu..

still remember back then

but because of i feel lonely at home sometimes i would lie to them that i got extra class, so after school i probably just went wander off somewhere with friends or just alone. there's nothing to do at home, i couldn't watched tv when he's around. most of what he watched on tv was football and i'm not really into those kind of sport..thinking back those day's when i really wanted so badly to watched a tv or play video games i asked his permission first. now..i did told you that i'm not close with dad and couldn't talked to him..even if i talked only like one or two words came out from my mouth...so it's kinda funny.. we lived in the same house ..but the only way i can talked to him or asked a



permission is by asking my mom to asked for me..or i wrote a letter to my dad..gave it to mom and asked mom to passed it to dad..huh~ it's like living with a jail guard or like passing a letter to a government sector mcm ada process2nya...ehe~ sometimes klau hari minggu2 as i was slleping so soundly like a corpse on the sofa ehem biasa dah tidur tempat living room coz my room don't have fan's so it's hot plus believed it or not i still sleeping in the same bed with mom and dad untill i was 13 ehe~ they couldn't leave me aven a single minute from they're eyes..anyway when time minggu2 like i said ..as i was sleeping soundly on the sofa, he always main lagu2 cassete yang lagu2 disco, habis begagar rumah and sofa tempat ku tidur. before he got these cassete player that attached to two huge speaker..imagine how i felt..when i need a rest and sleep he started to play and turned the speaker to max. i was really frustrated...i even shout and screaming under the pillows, punching the side of the sofa like a crazy maniac. gosh~


i told you i was sleeping in the same room ...same bed with my parent's at 12 or 13 so when i was studying for exam in the room, he purposely turned off the lights out, i'm really pissed but what to do...i grabbed a torch light and started studying in the dark..no way i'm gonna study in the living room alone~ then when i got a good performance and grade at school i actually demanded a gift because at that age i'm beginning to be able to talked to him abit. i wanted him to buy me a ps1 ...and he did...that make me so happy like floating in heaven...then a year after that i asked him to buy a computer..which i didn't like coz it was old model and run so slow but i do appreciated him for that.

disiplin dan strict rules nearly torn me apart

aku tak tahu kenapa aku nakal sejak di bangku sekolah, mungkin aku kesepian dan menginginkan perhatian yang penuh dari kedua orang tuaku, memang sebagai seorang anak tunggal aku di berikan sepenuh perhatian tetapi kadang2 aku juga merasa sunyi mungkin kerana aku tak punya abang, kakak atau adik untuk bermesra. kadang2 aku akan menjadi nakal dan memberontak, adakah kerana aku inginkan perhatian penuh ataupun inginkan kelonggaran dari perhatian mereka? sejak kecil aku telah di ajar berdisiplin oleh ayah but it doesn't work like that..it doesn't work when parent's started to dicipline you with harsh words and to think they can controlled my manner with a belt is



not really a good way to do it. why? is it because they are the parent's , older people that we should respect and be scared of? don't get me the wrong way..i respect them and still am now...but because of the strict rules that dad made like i couldn't go out with friends, i can't stay on the phone for 15 minutes and that goes to my mom too coz he's worried about the bill's (better if he just throw the phone la..if he don't want to use it) i had to go back home straight at the exact time and if i am late he surely angry or probably closed the gate, sleeping at the kitchen or living room. it did happened to me before, and for these i feel like i wanted to just ran far away from him. still remember the night when i was around 11 or 12 , he was so totally angry with mom ..i couldn't remember about what...he started to yelled and throwing things at mom..so ofcoz i defended my mom by yelling at him too, that makes him even angrier...he started to throw some blanket, pillows etc to us and make us slept in the kitchen. i was so angry at that time.. and told mom that if he keep doing these i surely ranaway. guess mom told him about that and mom told me that he was abit scared by my threat. i don't really care what he thinks,

rokok yang pertama

hidup menjadi anak tunggal bukanlah mudah seperti yang di sangkakan, hidupku semasa kecil penuh dengan kesunyian dan hanya ibu dan ayahku menjadi teman seharian. aku adalah seorang yang pemalu dan tak mudah untuk bergaul dengan sesiapa terutama sekali di kalangan saudara mara. padaku aku lebih rapat dengan teman persekolahan dari saudara dan sepupuku sendiri. hubungan aku dan ayahku tak rapat sangat. aku dan ayahku jarang sekali berbual dan kadang2 dalam sehari cuma sepatah kata yang bisa di katakan..namun demikian hubungan



aku dgn ibu ku amat rapat, sebagai kanak2 memang biasa lah menjadi nakal cuma kadang2 membuatkan kedua org tuaku marah. dahulu ibu sering membawa ku ke tempat kerja semasa musim cuti sekolah. ibu pada masa itu bekerja sebagai tukang masak di salah sebuah sekolah menengah. setiap kali bekerja ibu sering memberi ku kertas untuk ku tulis dan menconteng. dan kadang2 aku akan pergi keluar dapur dan berjalan2 sekitar sekolah...aku masih teringat waktu dahulu aku sedang duduk di bangku sekolah dan dua pelajar perempuan sana menghampiriku. mereka cuba untuk berbual namun aku cuma mendiamkan diri. kadang2 aku akan bersembunyi kerana terlalu malu sangat. dahulu juga teman2 ibuku juga sering menjaga ku jika ketika itu ibu sedang sibuk. teman ibu semua baik2 terhadapku dan ini menyebabkan aku rapat sedikit dengan mereka. ada satu teman ibu suka sangat merokok. masa tu aku sedang asyik melihat teman ibu, apa tidaknya aneh melihat asap yang keluar dari mulut dan hidungnya..aku keliru dan terasa ingin mencubanya. so pada masa mereka sedang sibuk bekerja aku mengambil peluang itu untuk mengambil sebatang rokok yang ada di dlm beg teman ibu. aku menyimpannya di dalam baju dan membawanya pulang. setibanya pulang aku terus pergi ke dalam tandas untuk mencubanya.. namun nasibku tak begitu baik , pada masa itu aku baru menghirup asap rokok yg pertama ...dan pada masa itu juga ibuku masuk kedalam tandas dengan pantas. aku terkejut melihat ibu ketika itu. ibu nampak rokok yang ku pegang namun dia tak berkata apa2 lalu beredar pergi. aku menjadi panic takut ibu akan memberitahu hal itu pada ayah. jika ayah tahu sudah tentu aku akan di marahi dan di pukul. lalu ku buang rokok tadi ke dalam tandas. mungkin ibu tak memberitahu hal itu pada ayah ataupun ayah tak mahu ambil tahu kerana hal itu tidak pernah di bangkit kan oleh kedua org tuaku.

today : harimau and jelangkung

hariani aku bangun awal..mcm biasa aku mandi awal and terus keluar bagi makan harimau kesayanganku ku..mun nda di bagi makan mengamuk kaliah...harimau ku ani kiut biut muanya .. di malam nda ku betidur ulihnya ni..bising banar ya di dapur..mengiaow2...guring limpang..mentang2 musim mengawan cheh~ kambang bna ...





petang atu tengah ku sibuk2 bekeraja pat office tibe2 ja antu jelangkung ani dtg...siapa lagi kalau bukan anak cina yg selalu dtg mengacau2 ah..amai bnar tangannya..ku pupuh ..ku ikat ..ku lantak udah tangannya masih lagi ia lincah cam ular kepanasan. mula2 tu inda ku kan melayan tapi ia ani pandai bah .. umur baru 10 taun tapi ulah mcm antu bepengalaman.


nama anak atu si yen..ehehe kiut muanya..sihat banar...iatah if me becakap sama ia mcm nada bah..mcm peumuran ku jua..malas tah ku kan bemanja sama kedia..cerita2 n gossip2 segala.

yen- "ate yan..u want candy?"

me-"uuu..candy...what candy?"

yen-"sweet and sour candy.."

*dgn selamba ku makan gula2 nya ..

yen-"i buy that one 0.50 cent .. u pay me 0.10 cent"

*ku kluarkan balik gula2 ah..ku tujah kan pat muanya ha2

me-"eh~ where's your dog? "

yen-" my dog gone already..it's my aunt fault.."

me-"why? what your aunt do?"

yen-"she open the door and let the dog loose"

me-"owh"

yen" but now i got a new dog..but it's not real..."

apakan ckapnya ani nda ku paham "what you mean not real ? your new dog plastic kah ..robot babitri?"

yen-"ha3 no..no what i mean was.."

alum ia sampat mengexplain ku putung ckpnya "what? ur dog ani apakan..kuyuk bilun? kuyuk pemainan kah?"

yen" haiya~ nolah..i want to say it's not really my dog"

tadi nya kuyuk barunya.."whatever lah :p " sambil ku ckp2 sama ia, sambil atu bekaja ku jua...ia pun turut jua bekaja eh..tangannya nda pandai teranah..singkap sana..singkap sini...

bila ku sasak ku kalitik sampai jua ia ampus..iatah kelamahan nya tu..biar ia tekapar2 atas lantai office ah..

yen" stop already ha3 u see what u done to me?"

me" what do i do meh?"

yen"i got a running nose (selisma) its because of you.."

bowh lagi tia .."wah your nose is running meh..u better catch it..after u dont have nose.."

yen"ha3 no..i said running nose bukan my nose running bah"

eh luan jua majalnya "awu bah running nose.....eh btw ur nose ah~ nda banjir kah"

yen" yes flooded with water u wana see"

me " no.no keep the change..u want tissue?"

yen"no thank you .. i wipe it with your jacket already"

punya la bangang ku mendangar...rupa2 nya di lapkannya ingusnya pat jacket yang ku pakai time atu ha3...

yen" ate yan i love you..~~"

me" i hate you too~!!"

nothing is free...

macam2 saja kan berlaku, bila udah rasa kan berjimat cermat supaya tak buang duit, macam2 jua masalah yang akan timbul...duit yang ada di tanganku ku hitung...bukannya semakin bertambah malah semakin berkurangan. kan baik kalau ada pokok bah yang daunnya duit keratas...dapat jua di cabut tiap2 hari...buahnya krg duit syiling...tandang saja batangnya...abis beguguran ke tanah "kkacingg!" (in my dreams maybe)...hek ele...mun panas atiku bah ku cabut daun mangga belakang rumah ah biar gundul nda bedaun...lpas atu tampal tia duit



keratas pakai super glue kah ..setipal kah..syiling krg masukkan dlm guni..nah~ ikat pat atas pokok ah..rasa kan menyamankan ati...entah2 udah esuk2 ilang tia kali pokok mangga ah~ kana curi...hah!! banartah usin dlm tangan jadi abu bah tekana grand sale sana sini ah~ mcm ikan bejual di pasar..eh salah!!! mcm orang bejual di pasar...kana laungkan2 jualan murah2...ada case my mom cerita..u nak tau...kita kembali selepas ini...(iklan ali punya tungkat a.k.a tongkat ali da~)


bah selamat kembali ke rancangan "ah~ u bakayuh la sandire~" okeh

al- qisah~~~
si pulan manang adiah~
bersyukur ya pasal rezeki nya betambah~

adiahnya bukan usin syiling ~
atau kuda lumping~

tapi kerita mahal yang bekilau2~
no..bukan m. daud kilau~

kata org sana nya~
dun worry ..it's your's..percuma~
anda cuma perlu isi borang di atas meja~

si pulan pun kesana kan menyain borang~
tapi bila di baca lain tah pulang~

"adiah apa namanya ni? kata percuma!" kata si pulan,
kata aku manang lucky draw, tapi napa mesti byr bulan2
patutnya adiah free ani..nda lagi payah di bayar..ani kapisan~

sori lah wang~ jgn tah di bagi kadiaku adiah~
keep the change...mulih ku dulu ah~



cheh~ p.s " cerita telah ku ubah suai k..bak kata si puteh..aiks (sowi tesabut si puteh ucing ku) i mean..bak kata ong puteh "these story is under construction~!!" haha mun paham bisai..mun nda paham..buat mcm org paham..nda payah ku beceramah..bukannya ari jumat ni.., nway ah~ adaka patut ha~ kalau menang adiah atu o laki draw kah (ops lucky draw bah) ehem...patutnya memang la percuma..nda tah pyh kan keluar usin lagi ..bukannya adiah namanya tue~ bukannya makin sanang..makin susah ada plang ..yo..!

kadang2 ah dalam internet ada iklan kata percuma o free of charge..nda kiralah samada download mp3, games, ebooks etc..pikir tah banar free..tapi bila kan download saja suruhnya sign up which cost $XX.. bejuluran lidah ku ja .. sia sia pun saja...nda ja... *wink wink*